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it’s all i’ve ever wanted
After a long day in the car we arrived home and off he went to the fields to pick up hay bales. I sped off to the grocery store to get stuff for dinner. We knew it was going to be a late dinner so we decided on breakfast for dinner, easy enough. I returned […]
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coach of the year
Coach of the Year. Our club held its first ever end of the season banquet and the final award given was Coach of the Year. Voted on by all the coaches in the gym. 18 teams. 18 coaches. And I won? This is my second year coaching. I coached a regional team last year, was […]
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another goodbye, but a different goodbye
Yet another goodbye. While this was another end of the season goodbye, it was different than the last. My 14’s are just babies. They still have years to play yet, both for their high schools and for club. So this feels… less sad? Maybe? I believe there’s a lot of power in having different coaches […]
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the dreaded goodbye
What’s the hardest part of teaching and coaching? I’m sure people could go on and on about what’s hard, but for me, I have one clear answer… the goodbye. The dreaded goodbye that inevitably comes around every year. Tonight was one of those goodbyes. My last volleyball practice with my 18-year-olds, some of which have […]
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a moment of complete happiness
Do you ever just find yourself in a moment of complete happiness? It feels as if you’ve left your body and you are looking at yourself from above in awe. Completely content. Truly in the present. I found myself in that very spot tonight. Twice. The first at dinner. Two and a half hours sitting […]
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my support system
My coworker picked me up for work, opened the door for me and everything. My partner teacher braided my hair during our prep. My secretary offered to do my hair tomorrow. My partner teacher gave me a ride home. My coworker helped hook me up to my ice machine during lunch. My aide wrote tomorrow’s […]
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asking for help
I don’t like asking for help. It’s not a strong suit of mine. I like people to think I can do it all. That I have it all together. But honestly, who does? While I’m still not great at asking for help, I’d like to think I’m getting better. I think there is strength in […]
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ponytail giggles
I sat straddling the toilet backwards trying to give step by step instructions to my little brother as he put my hair into a ponytail. He struggled to hold the brush and my hair, pieces falling out of his hands every time he brushed through it. Giggles ensued. He finally abandoned the brush and said […]
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step back and relax
I always forget how much of a “do-er” I am until I’m forced to stop “doing.” I’m the queen of stretching myself thin, overbooking my schedule, and taking no time for myself. Well now I’ve been forced into taking that time to myself. Shoulder surgery last week has me in a big contraption of a […]
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alone
I continue to realize one thing over and over again throughout my life… man, I hate being alone. Don’t get me wrong, I love having my own space, being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want in my apartment, but there’s something about being alone for an extended period of time that I […]
trust yourself
just a young teacher, coach, artist who's learning to trust herself
trust yourself 