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big feelings
Do you ever feel like you FINALLY got to where you were meant to be, only for life to throw you a curveball that alters your path? That’s how I feel right now. I already had this incredible passion. Volleyball. But when I began coaching that passion quickly turned into a calling. My coaching journey…
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grandmas
grandmas. the women who shaped me. I’m a smidge at a loss of how to put into words all that my grandmas mean to me. To be honest simply typing those three sentences above was enough to put tears in my eyes. I’ll start with this, the one thing that scared me about moving to…
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then who will?
This is one of those weeks where I’m simply fired up. I’m fired up about volleyball. I’m fired up about coaching. I’m fired up about my players. I’m fired up about my program. It really all comes down to one simple question, then who will? It makes me sad to see what the world of…
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a moment for me
a great weekend with a tough ending. how can i be loving my life, but still fighting back tears every night? how can i be the happiest i’ve ever been, but still feel like i’m drowning? the answer feels simple. because I’m me. that feels like a dark sentence, but i think i’ve found the…
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it’s all i’ve ever wanted
After a long day in the car we arrived home and off he went to the fields to pick up hay bales. I sped off to the grocery store to get stuff for dinner. We knew it was going to be a late dinner so we decided on breakfast for dinner, easy enough. I returned…
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coach of the year
Coach of the Year. Our club held its first ever end of the season banquet and the final award given was Coach of the Year. Voted on by all the coaches in the gym. 18 teams. 18 coaches. And I won? This is my second year coaching. I coached a regional team last year, was…
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another goodbye, but a different goodbye
Yet another goodbye. While this was another end of the season goodbye, it was different than the last. My 14’s are just babies. They still have years to play yet, both for their high schools and for club. So this feels… less sad? Maybe? I believe there’s a lot of power in having different coaches…
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the dreaded goodbye
What’s the hardest part of teaching and coaching? I’m sure people could go on and on about what’s hard, but for me, I have one clear answer… the goodbye. The dreaded goodbye that inevitably comes around every year. Tonight was one of those goodbyes. My last volleyball practice with my 18-year-olds, some of which have…
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a moment of complete happiness
Do you ever just find yourself in a moment of complete happiness? It feels as if you’ve left your body and you are looking at yourself from above in awe. Completely content. Truly in the present. I found myself in that very spot tonight. Twice. The first at dinner. Two and a half hours sitting…
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my support system
My coworker picked me up for work, opened the door for me and everything. My partner teacher braided my hair during our prep. My secretary offered to do my hair tomorrow. My partner teacher gave me a ride home. My coworker helped hook me up to my ice machine during lunch. My aide wrote tomorrow’s…